As I sit here alone feeling lost and oh so sad, I find I wish for the closeness of a man and his soft touch. What happened to the days of eyes that met and the fire that ignited from heated looks and desire that burned from within? Have I become so undesirable that no man would ever wish to touch me and make love to me again?

I think I'm fairly good looking and some would say I'm even pretty. I can see that fire deep in my eyes. I can feel passion that burns throughout my body. Hell, I can read sensuous thoughts and feel the wetness as it slides down my vagina.

I can look at these long and slender fingers and pretty hands that look so nice as they trace over a man's body. I can feel the light touch as I run my hands lightly over my nipples and watch them respond. I can slide my middle finger deep in my mouth and close my lips around that finger and suck gently and know how my pretty lips would feel on the head of a cock.

I've been known to excite a man with my smile and knowing look. I know how I respond to a man's touch excites him and makes him desire the soft wetness buried between my legs. I can feel him respond as my hands grip him tightly and my long finger nails slide up his back as he enters me. The low and guttural moans that escape from my lips as the pleasure of being filled by him makes him work to please me and make me cum.

So, why must I remain locked in this emptiness without the touch of a man who wants and needs my passion? Is it so wrong for me to want to feel the release granted from the sharing of two bodies? I want to make love again. I want to kiss deeply and taste a man again. I need to bring pleasure and have pleasure given to me. I need to know that I'm desired and can arouse a man to the point that he no longer thinks but just feels. I want to be aroused to the point that I no longer think but just feel.

No, I would not just jump into bed with just anyone. My mind and heart must be involved so that my body will feel. Being bound by the bonds of an empty marriage make it very difficult to pursue these feelings and desires. Will I be able to hold out for fulfillment until I can be free again? I don't know. I think about it all the time and feel the time slipping away from me and deep in my heart I know, should I come across that very man that can touch my mind and my heart, and should that man feel the same...I hope he doesn't make me wait.