My coming out -

The next morning when I woke up I was totally turned on and hard as a rock I began to wonder if what I dreamt was at all possible. I figured what the hell, only one way to find out. So I sat up and bent over and tried to give myself a blowjob but it did not work; I am just not that flexible in real life. Even though I was a little disappointed I still masturbated myself to orgasm.

At the time I didn't really think about it, but it wasn't until later that I realized that I had masturbated; I had been fantasizing about giving someone else head. This made me start to question what it meant. Why am I so turned on by this idea? Is it because of how good it felt in my dream that I want to recreate it? I wondered if I was slowly turning gay. I really wasn't sure. All I know is that I was not been able to get the image out of my head. I knew that I was too terrified of the idea of going down on another man, but going down on myself, that was different. "It would be just like masturbating but with my mouth instead of my hand," I told myself.

Later that night I researched on-line to see if self-sucking was something that happened and to see if it was even possible. To my amazement I found plenty of pictures of different men sucking themselves. Most of the men had extraordinarily large penises which allowed them to reach down that far, but I did see a few that managed the act purely by flexibility alone. This gave me hope that it was possible if I kept trying. "I may have to take up yoga" I though to myself.

Mesmerized, I continued to look at picture after picture, getting more and more turned on, but also feeling inadequate because even though I needed release, I wouldn't be able to do what I really wanted: to go down on myself. My hand would just not be enough.

In frustration I continued to look at image after image. Then I saw one that made my heart skip a beat. "This is something I can do" I thought looking at an image of a man who had thrown his legs over his head and had masturbated over his face and open mouth. He had cum shooting out of his cock on to his face and into his mouth. I was enthralled by this picture, I kept staring at the cum shooting into his mouth and I began to wonder what cum tastes like, what my cum tastes like.

Without taking a minute to think about it I turned off the computer and went into the bedroom where I could lie comfortably by the bed on my back and throw my legs over my head like I had seen in that picture. Once I had centered myself over my face and mouth, I masturbated furiously. I was so excited that I came in just a few seconds. As my orgasm hit me I tried to catch all of my cum in my mouth, but in my excitement most of it splashed all over my face. The warm and goopy liquid landing on my skin felt great, and I was surprised by the taste. I expected it to be salty, but found it was also somewhat sour with a bitter after taste. Surprisingly it was not altogether unpleasant.

The following day when I awoke I felt embarrassed and ashamed by my behavior the night before. I swore I would never do such a thing again. I drove all such thoughts from my head and refused to think about it at all.

I didn't think about it for days, and then on a Friday night I went to a party and met a beautiful woman named Mandy. She stood at 5 foot 10 and had long wavy red hair. She was wearing this little black dress that came up to her upper thighs, showing off her great pair of legs and a low cut top extenuated by a sparkling long necklace that drew every ones' eyes to her beautiful cleavage.

We were drawn to each other like magic. It was like no one else existed at this party but us. We spent the whole night talking and dancing, so it was no surprise when we ended back at her place after hours.

We were a little tipsy and having fun kissing and fondling each other. In the back of my mind I was really happy and relived that I was with this beautiful woman because just a few days before I had began to question my heterosexuality. I was in my glory; a straight guy just about to score with the hottest chick that was at the party, and man, I couldn't wait to brag to all my friends about it later.

I was thinking all of this as she had casually undid my pants and had dropped them around my ankles. Before I knew it she was on her knees and giving me one of the best blowjobs ever. My knees felt week as she reached up and began stroking my cock with her hand as she sucked on the tip, bringing me closer and closer to orgasm. I tried to pull away so I wouldn't cum to soon, but she would have nothing of it. Her hand gripped me like a vice and with her lips still around me; she looked up and gave a stern look that said "don't even think about it!"

I froze and not sure what to do. She continued sucking and pumping my cock. I t felt so good I just went with it and was almost knocked over by my orgasm. I felt it shoot through me like electricity from my head to my toes; my teeth even went numb by the force of it.

When I recovered and opened my eyes Mandy was standing in front of me with a great big grin on her face. She had some of my cum on her lips and I could see more running down to her chin. She tried to excuse herself to get cleaned up, but something primal came over me and I grabbed her and kissed her instead. Tasting myself in her mouth got me excited all over again. I kissed her deeply and passionately until it was gone; I even licked and kissed her chin and neck clean of any remnants of my love.

But I didn't stop there I wanted to return the favor, so I kissed her all the way down her dress to her luscious thighs. I lifted up her dress and pulled down her underwear and was pleased to see it was a black thong. I like women who aren't afraid to wear sexy underwear. She pulled her dress off and removed her bra then she lied down and spread her legs. One of her hands gently caressed her breast as the other lazily made her way down to pussy. She looked fabulous as she played with herself, watching me undress.

Once I was naked I kneeled down and began kissing her toes and slowly made my way up her legs to her beautiful mound. I began liking her pussy lips softly, asking them to open for me with my lips and tongue. As she got wetter and fuller her lips did open for me and they revealed her treasured clit. She was so wet and excited that I was able to bring her to orgasm in just a few minutes.

As her orgasm subsided I lay next to her on the floor and she noticed that I was hard again. She kissed me and then got an impish grin on her face; she reached down and began masturbating me with her hand. She kept looking at me in a funny way as she played with me. I felt really good so I let her even though she was making me feel uncomfortable by the way she was looking at me. It was like she was plotting something.

As my orgasm started to build and my breathing got heavier and faster, she asked me if I wanted to fuck her. "Oh yes!" I moaned as she continued to stroke me.

Mandy slowed down her strokes so I wouldn't cum, "I'll let you fuck me tomorrow if you let me fuck you and you come back and have sex with my friend too." She cooed in my ear.

"Sure, no problem if she's at least half as beautiful as you," I said between gasps not really understanding what she meant.

Mandy smiled with a pleased look on her face. "It's a date" she said and got up and left the room for a few minutes. I assumed she had gone to clean up and thought nothing of it until she returned wearing a huge black strap-on that must have been at least nine inches long and very thick. I sat up startled and scared, part of me wanted to run; to my frightened mind the thing looked about two feet long and six inches wide. "You like my cock big boy?" She said it more as a statement than a question as she stroked it with one hand, the other holding a purple bottle of Astroglide.

I was still in shock, unable to get up or do anything but gape at it, marveling at the realistic shape with a nice crowned head and veins going down the sides. She stepped closer so it was standing erect right in front of my face. "Suck my cock baby," she commanded, "you know you want to."

As my mind said no, my heart and throbbing cock said yes; and I closed my eyes and opened my mouth and gingerly put my lips over the head of the strap-on. I did my best to move up and down on it with my mouth but it was too big for my inexperienced mouth. I never the less enjoyed every minute of it. I loved the shape and feel of it my mouth and I imagined that it was a real, and brought my hand up to stroke it and I mimicked the way Mandy had gone down on me earlier. I was in heaven and felt a rush of disappointment when she pulled out of me.

Mandy saw the look on my face, smiled and caressed my cheek softly,"don't worry baby, the fun isn't over yet." Then she pushed me back and asked me to roll over onto my hands and knees.

With my heart punting I did it, but stammered "I don't think its going to fit," as she positioned herself behind me. I heard her squirt the lubricant onto her hands and dildo, and then her hands began caressing my ass. She kneaded my tense muscles and gave a massage and as I relaxed she slowly would bring a finger closer and closer to my hole. The feeling was sensational, I began moaning and pushing back into her hands wanting more.

I moaned and almost came when one finger entered me. She worked it in and out and before I knew it she had two fingers working in and out of me. She pulled out and positioned herself directly behind me; she pressed her cock and rubbed it up and down against me. The feel of her shaft between my cheeks was great, but it made want more. I ground my ass back into her and begged her to fuck me.

She laughed sweetly and put the head right at my opening and applied a little pressure. "Now arch your back, look up, and stick your but up as high as you can so that it won't hurt,"

With my heart beating furiously and my cock was pulsing painfully I did as she bid, trusting she knew what she was doing. She entered me slowly, a little bit at a time. With every thrust I moaned and tried to relax and enjoy the feeling. When she had a few inches in she began thrusting in and out in a steady gentle pace, making sure that she wasn't hurting me. As I adjusted to the size of her I loved how it felt and I got into the rhythm pushing back into her and soon she was all the way in and she truly began fucking me with a passion.

I was crying with pleasure with every thrust, louder than I have ever before when she leaned down wrapped her arms around me and began masturbating me. When I came, having her inside of me was the most wonderful feeling; feeling my muscles contracting around the dildo intensified my orgasm to the point that I thought my beating heart would burst.

When I was done she continued to lovingly fuck me as she fed me with her hand. I liked her hand clean with out a second thought, marveling at the wonderful feeling of being fucked up the ass.

On my way home later that night I had a frightening realization; that Mandy's friend who I agreed to have sex with was probably not going to be another woman as I had so innocently thought. As much as that night was with Mandy was fun and exciting, I was not ready to have sex with another man.

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